arrggh not again

it was not visible to anyone around me, but I was in such lazy mood this past few weeks. I just felt so unmotivated, I can not even stay still on my desk from 8 to 5. I always left the office 2-3 hours earlier.

there might be many reasons to this current mood, maybe the working atmosphere or ’something’ else. :)
but seriously, the working atmosphere has been very demotivated lately that I really want to scream out. I felt like I had it. But then again, my hands are tied, can not run away.

I am channeling all this frustration and laziness to this particular sides, I guess it’s fun to read about someone else life when you found a dead end with yours. But it’s actually no fun since I become addicted to it. and of course, forgetting what I suppose to do in the first place.
makes me feel guilty.

I try really hard to get back on my happier mood at the office, I even sit at my desk long enough to do. listing all the chores for coming weeks and try to finish them one by one. It went quite well, then around 3 pm I had the urge to just go home. and I did, after waiting for about 30 minutes (to get over my quilt) and stopped over at the IDP. oh dear Lord, what is happening to me and my body and my mood?….