temptation

I could not resist the temptation. although in the end it only make me sad. but I miss him the most. He is in fact already a blurry memory from years ago, like an old picture fades on white and brown tone. But the warm and secure I received from him is still clear to me. when I needed the most, he is the man. save me from misery as I saved him his love the day I was conceived. such a funny fate that lingers between us. I gave him what he wants for exchange of my life. and he gave me the world as exchange of his.
this temptation of take a sneak peek of what might have been was so very strong. despite of the sadness, there is a glimpse of a dream never to be told, never to come true.